aspiring artist.. or something like that

i secretly love drawing and art. i see the vision in my head of what i want to create and i try and make it happen. more often than not it doesn't work out and i just leave it in the sketchbook so nobody can see it. but my grandma Alta (she was an amazing painter, extremely talented) told me more than once: "never throw away anything you paint or sketch, even if you hate it. keep practicing and learn from your mistakes. never, never, never label your artwork as trash." so that would be why i have portfolios overflowing with art and no where to put it all! this is a drawing i did of my uncle jeremy who passed away a year ago in november. i did it with black and white charcoal pencil on gray paper. a couple days after he died i knew i needed to draw a picture of him for my grandparents. finding time, however, was not so easy. in the end i decided to not take any classes in the summer and i just worked on the drawing a lot. i finished it in june and gave it to my grandparents as a surprise. the day i gave them the drawing was the very best day of summer:)

Time

Time is flying and dragging at the same time. it kind of bugs me. time flies when things are going good.... and drags when im at work and its a slow day (like right now for example). I guess in this post im going to talk about my job. I work at AF hospital.. i work night shifts from 6 pm to 6:30 am and sometimes day shifts (like today) from 6 am to 6:30 pm. Now for anybody who has never worked a graveyard... it's hard to explain the way it messes with a person's head. Since working graveyards i've learned to appreciate SLEEP so much more than i used to.

graveyards control me even when im not working. i can never sleep at night because im used to staying up. so basically i wander my quiet sleeping house every night and try and find ways to make myself tired. its pathetic. but very true. once i fall asleep... man i sleep forever haha. but until i fall... ugh. i feel like a lonely insomniac.

Christmas: Talked to Parley on the phone. xoxo

New Blogger:)

I know it's kinda lame to have a blog for just me but i decided to make one anyway! I guess this is what happens when I'm bored on a night shift:) I'm new at the blogging thing so hopefully I'll be able to figure this out.